Kaome, first off, THANK YOU for writing that journal. it saved me a lot of grief. just thinking about it is bad enough. having to write about it would have made it worse...
anyway, to everyone else, i'm sorry it took so long for me to reply to your comments and everything else. i still can't guarantee i'll be on as i used to be... there's a lot going on.
but i just got back from the hospital, and i finally have some good news. Erick's pulling through, a little more every day at least. they're ready to take him off the oxygen again, and this time they know it won't choke him. other than that, i guess we're fairing ok. he's still a little out of it, and i blame all the drugs they have him on [ ._.; ].
but i'm still worried. my grandma was the same way. they said she would get better, released her from the hospital and the next day we found her in the morning... well, you know. :'(
i guess that's just my downfall though. i'm terribly pessimistic about these sort of things...
oh god... i don't want to think about it anymore. if i lose him, i don't know what i'd do... i've already lost my mom, my grandma and basically my dad -- i've been living with Melody, Erick's mom...
i don't know what to do anymore...